God, my father?

It is not only abuse of any kind that brings the same effects.  It is, also, the human conditions of war, illness, and death.

In my case, I was attending a healing workshop and John was talking about infant abandonment.  As I was hurting and in so much pain, I was thinking why?  As both my parents were with me until I was 35 when Dad died and Mom is living at 88.  As John continued to talk, in an instant I realized yes I was abandon by my Father.  When I was born at the end of the war, my Father was already in the Orient heading toward China.  He was not home until I was nearly 7 months old.

As I realized during the healing process that extended well beyond the weekend and in some cases even 'til today, the effects of my Father's not being there for my birth and first 6 months were the same as if he had left.

As a young child growing up in Holy Ghost parish and school, I knew and loved Jesus and the Holy Spirit.  It was not until the mid 1970's while on vacation in Western USA, did I even have a sense of the magnitude of the God the Father.  Visiting the Grand Canyon, I lived with the mystery of these words 'what is it all about' for weeks.

On morning, in an instant, I know beyond knowing that the beauty and magnitude of the Grand Canyon was symbol of God the Father.  In seeing in reality the magnificence of the Grand Canyon, I could only begin to touch the mystery of God, my Father.